Hello! I will start my blog again this week with another fresh poem! I wrote this one a few days ago so my headspace has shifted since then but I think it still carries relevant points! It has been a rollercoaster of a week, but as my Uncle saids “Focus on the good” and there was still a lot of good. I hosted a lovely lady from the country, we played a fun game of scrabble together and had lots of chats. I worked every day and made some good money. I even managed to cycle a few days to school which is always a good way to get the body in gear and the head in a good space. A bit of a nature break helps everything. I finished off another totem pole too! I am obsessed with mosaic totem poles right now! Okay, so here goes with the poem, welcome to another blog.

Being BOLD in bold, trying not to act old.

Do the thing that scares you,

Say yes, say no, be afraid say boo.

One life to get in strife, be a wife, cut the bullshit with a knife.

Be bold, be brave be beautiful.

Life is grand, life is crazy, life is bountiful.

Tick tock, watch the clock,

You only have so much time.

Before you know it, life will pass you by,

Like a fly, buzz buzz, on and on.

Don’t let your bullshit hold you back,

Stay on track.

Plan the trip, say yes, do the thing,

And don’t be a dingaling*.

(*Whatever that is, could be the useless fool who lets opportunities pass them by and is too afraid to be bold anymore. Possibly.)

So this week I turned down a dream job. Correction, it was a dream job a few years ago. It is so surprising to me however when finally it came to me on a silver platter, I just was not interested anymore. Maybe it is a matter of wrong timing? But it certainly was not what I felt like doing. It all just felt like a big hassle. Wow, I have changed. I used to jump at every adventurous opportunity presented to me, act now think later. It got me into trouble a few times, where I found myself in the middle of nowhere, arghh! What have I done? Now I take my time with decisions a little bit more, so I guess that is a good thing. In case you were wondering it was a job in Christmas island!! I know! What is wrong with me!!?? According to my poem I am officially the dingaling! 

Today as of writing, is my Mum’s anniversary of her passing. It has been 12 years since she has died. I think about her everyday, and it is still hard that she is not here. However. We are all not here forever, and it is acceptance of death that is so important. I am so envious of people who still have their parents, some of my friends even in the 60’s still have their parents! It is truly incredible to me. I was lucky to be very close to my Mum and my Dad. I have a house guest right now and she asked me the other day, what major philosophy did you learn from your Mum. One of her favourite sayings was “go by feel” such a great saying! Our emotions are powerful things and quite honestly I try not let them rule me too much, sometimes we just have to suck it up and get on with things. But one thing I have learnt is the body knows. You can feel when things are changing or needing to change, and it is different to an emotional reaction. It is an inner knowing when things feel out of alignment or on track. If you can tap into this powerful knowingness then I think it is a very good thing. 

The week has ended on a very turbulent note with another breakup. Well the same one over again actually. I will write about it in the next blog as it’s crazy to me how quickly it spiralled. I want to write about it to try to understand it better, but I think this is one I may never understand. 

Listen to your body, listen to your instincts. 

Anita xx