I wrote a really tragic post yesterday, and I already feel guilty about sharing and baring my soul to the world. I needed to though, and I really appreciate the feedback and comments that came in, thank you.
You will be pleased to know that my bad day had a positive ending. After I lay on the couch somewhat paralysed by my mood, I stayed still, closed my eyes and allowed myself to rest. Slowly I regained my composure, and ideas started forming in my mind, once again.
My mojo began to return. Ideas came springing to life. I could do the gardening? I could change that hose I bought? I could fix the bathroom tap? I could paint? I could read? I could colour?
“I could simply rest and enjoy my new space today.”
You see I am constantly trying to keep myself busy. This is what I do. Being busy is a human condition I think. I simply can not do nothing, not for too long anyway.
In the end I needed and really appreciated the forced indoor grounding I gave myself. I decided to stay in my new home and keep making it feel like my space, I need to own this new space and love my new environment. I will keep striving to make it perfect and the way I want it to be, to reflect positivity, good energy and lots of colour, of course.
With my eyes closed back on the couch, flashes of inspiration came to me. I suddenly became motivated and decided to do some gardening. I threw myself off the darn couch and got to it. I got the secateurs out from under the sink and started to vigorously prune unwanted branches to create more sunlight in my front garden. I set up my new hose and nozzle contraption. Then I replaced my shower head which had rusted out, so proud of completing that man job! It might be a little wonky but I did it myself!
Then I did some colouring…and then I remembered I had some seedlings to plant. So back I went to the garden and planted my basil, mint and sunflower seeds. I will look forward to the process of watching them grow and blossom. A bit like myself. I needed to feel at peace in the dark soil, getting grounded, earthed, making roots, ready to shoot into sunshine and shine bright again.
In the afternoon I met with my friend Sophie. She has become such a great friend of mine. We went for a nice big beach walk and I took lots of great new photos. This really cheered me up.
After a few games of Yahtzee, and a home cooked pumpkin soup, I was feeling human again. YES!!
Talk about all the emotions in one day. What started as a tumultuous and sad crazy morning, turned out to be a happy, elated and fun evening. Life is so crazy. As one of my readers saids “you have to learn to ride the waves” and I think I surfed a big one yesterday. Like a massive, pounding, monster of a tsunami or like one you get in Hawaii, where you look like you might die if you attempt to careen down the extreme high wave. But this time I made it. I made the ride and I rode that wave out.
Today is a new day, full of possibility and wonder and opportunity. Maybe I will pump those bike tyres up and go for a spin?!
I want to add that last night there was a mega full moon so I think I was lunar affected too. The moon most usually makes me feel pretty whacky. So let’s blame that.
What do you do to get out of a funk?
Love Anita xx