Life is so weird. The older I get the weirder it feels. Yesterday I played tennis for our open day, it was a great day. I feel so inspired by many of the mature players at the club. One lady, Dallas, is around 84. Honestly, she plays a mean game, I am smashing balls over her way, and bang, they come straight back! She is so gutsy and so inspiring. I hope I am still playing like her into my eighties! 

I know I am at the end of a cycle. I have been very inspired to do lots of culling this year. I have cleared out many of my possessions in my home, more to go, pulled down everything off my walls and repainted in a fresh antique white. I crave calmness. I crave quietness. I am learning to take things at a slower pace and listen more. Create more quiet time, so I can listen. I find myself grappling at my thoughts, but they keep running away from me. Forever elusive, just out of grasp, I am finding it hard to formulate a firm future plan. I ponder a myriad of ideas, constantly, overwhelmingly spoilt by options, quite honestly, but nothing feels just quite right. When it appears like I am making an impulsive or spontaneous decision, it is on the back of years of quietly brewing and bubbling and stirring and percolating ideas. Then boom, it is happening, it is go time. This is the cycle my life has always gone in. I have faith it will continue in this manner. 

As for the blocks, I think I am the main impediment right now. We all are right? We all have only our selves to blame. For the most part, life does continue to happen all around us, and external circumstances surround constantly, poking, and prodding us  to change, evolve, devolve, etc. However, we need to pull back, conserve our energy for ourselves and do what is right for us. It is okay to be selfish sometimes. It is not egotistical to want for a good life for yourself, and to do this, we need to be disciplined, and clear about what we want, or more importantly how we want to feel. And mostly, we all want to feel great. For most of the time. Life does not always feel great though, riding the waves of high and low gets easier with age, we build resilience and toughness, and we learn. “Don’t suffer the fools”! Be brave and carve your own path. 

The other night I went to see an amazing contemporary dance performance by CO3 Dance company with my friend. I loved this energising performance. It was a thrill and a feast to watch and enjoy the dynamic movements of these incredible athletes, spinning and jerking and slithering and leaping and running and pushing themselves to their limits across an interesting tiered circular stage. I was enthralled for the full hour of the performance and felt completely energised by their magical moves. Dance has always been such an incredible part of my life, and I need to give it more time in my future. I love that freedom of movement, expression and athleticism. So inspiring. 

Okay I am off to a yoga in the park class. I plan to leap over those existential blocks today! Then I am smashing out some laps and then meeting some friends for lunch. Hopefully some relax time after that. 

I hope my writing inspires and motivates you to live your best life, however form that takes. Please comment, I love to read from my readers. What is your biggest hurdle in life most recently?

Anita xx